STOP JUDGING ME!!!
Sorry ... I didn't mean to yell.
Actually I did ... just not at you. I know you would never judge me (after all, you could just stop reading if you didn't like me). You are kind, caring ... you look to see the best in people ... you see the best in me. I have no reason to yell at you.
No, I'm trying to send this message to myself (though I notice I used the word trying, so who knows whether it'll actually work). I make excuses to myself, and I make excuses for myself, but I don't believe either one, and I can't stop judging me.
I have gained 40 pounds in the past 10 months. And I'm absolutely disgusted by that fact.
Now I admit that some of the weight came on from a bit of stress eating (it hasn't exactly been a great 10 months), but the reality is that most of it is not my fault. For the most part, I eat healthy food. For the most part, I eat reasonable portions. I do not deserve this weight ... or this disgust.